I’ve been spending time with someone of the male persuasion the last couple of weeks, and I’m really starting to care deeply for him. He’s very complex, and unusual, and not without flaws. He’s kinda like me.
Yesterday, this fellow – Colin – told me that he was deactivating his profile on the online dating app where we initially connected, because he wants to focus on me and exploring what is between us. This means a lot to me, for two reasons: 1. I believe him; and 2. its been awhile since someone has committed to me in any substantial way.
Because there are times when my own words fail me, I relied on English singer-songwriter Dodie to express to Colin how I feel about him and his decision, and sent him her song Human. You can view the soul-destroying official video for Human here, or watch and listen to a sweet acoustic version of the song here (I recommend the latter if you don’t want your heart ripped out of your chest and stomped to pieces).
While it isn’t exactly a love song, Human is a song about love, about meeting and connecting with someone your heart recognizes as extraordinary. It is incredibly beautiful, eloquent but simple, lyrical and earnest, and I cannot listen to it without feeling wave after wave of frisson, and of course, without shedding tears.
I’m always nervous when I share a song with someone who is of value to me, and this is even more true when the song is the conduit through which I am expressing my true emotions. Fortunately, Colin not only took the time to listen to Human, he also loved it, and understood immediately what I was trying to say. Its rare we find someone whose heart speaks the same language as our own, so regardless of how things evolve with Colin, at this moment, I feel so very heard.